Who Am I?

"loving the you that you are, and letting go of the you that you are not"

Interesting statement a friend sent me this morning.....
      We met as I began a weight loss journey.  HIGH success, followed by the usual slide backwards.  I can claim that I kept some of the weight off - and have been trying to figure out how to KEEP that much off and maybe drop a little more.. but that is another story...

As we continue the journey - ostensibly for weight loss - we learn about ourselves.  We live our lives - day by day - figuring it out as we go along just like everyone else.

And a major lesson is - to love ourselves.

Again - another prevailing thought is that overweight people don't love themselves.  Not really sure about that.... yet again another story for another time.


But where this statement -  "loving the you that you are, and letting go of the you that you are not" - hits me is trying to decide what this means.

I do love me....

I just don't always make the best choices for myself

I have a long history of taking care of others

My life actually has been FILLED with others' needs for many years

And I sought more as I went along

And I loved it :-)


Yet now

maybe it is a fallow period

But I can not allow others' needs to drive me

And I avoid commitments until I can step inside myself and see how I really feel about things

My first reaction isn't always true.

(so if you ask me a question and I take a breath before responding - or say, I'll think about it - you know why and you will have to trust me)

I have learned that I am the only person I can rely on.

I don't know when I can let others back in - I am trying.  But I have to really trust me first - and it is there

that I am figuring out just exactly WHO I AM right now.

not - somebody's mother
        somebody's wife
        somebody's grandmother
        somebody's employee
       somebody's friend

me

just me