Another Day

 The sun is out thank goodness!  But my 'itchiness' continues....

You know - it's true - food is always there when you need it.  

My go to response since I was very very young... is food. 

When feelings come forward... there's food

When confusion hits... there's food

When I'm bored... there's food..

The struggle is real.

I made a commitment this year to work at things that scare me.

What scares me?  Humans.

Actively letting humans back into my life?  I've been isolating for at least 5 years.  It's hard.  Harder than I thought.  And I have 10 extra pounds to show for it.

I think what I want to say is that I want to continue working on being a better human whatever that means.  I definitely need to keep on fighting for my own healthy BMI and weight.  

And I need to state that the battle doesn't end because the weight comes off.  You just fight the fight from a stronger place.  70 years of stuffing my feelings down.... smoothing things over with ice cream and french fries.... that overwhelming urge to munch or crunch of swallow doesn't just dissipate...

It's a continual struggle but this is where I SEE you.

We can help each other.