If you are like me,
your head is full of "shoulda's"
You constantly are bombarded with all the things you haven't done
all the things you have to do
and you miss the little miracles.
This has been a busy week
I have missed sitting on my porch in the evenings
Every time I pass my porch window
I see the empty hummingbird feeders
I really need to stop and fill them.
This thought, dozens of times daily for almost a week.
I am a failure.
Yesterday I got lucky.
Instead of (well, along with!) the empty feeder,
I heard God speak to me.
(which I am sure He does regularly but my own voice is too loud to hear)
There was a butterfly -
not shining and free and happy (as we imagine butterflies)
maybe even fruitlessly
Going about its business
bit by bit
gathering what it could
from where it was.
It wasn't bothered by "shoulda's"
It wasn't bothered by what it had not done
or by what it was not getting.
It just flitted to each hole
and flitted away to the next thing.
Today, I shall be a butterfly
and - I will indeed fill the feeders first thing!
But I will carefully
gather the nectar the day has to offer
And flit away
to the next adventure.