..Okay - it's been a busy week.... an excuse, I know.
I just can't bear to turn that stupid dvd player on again.
So, I am spending a little time reviewing what IS the problem! It would be great to have fantastic abs.... and I did the work a few years ago so I KNOW it can happen. I admit, it is a little frightening too. Having spent the majority of my life feeling too fat to live, I - sad as it sounds - am comfortable with that feeling of self-loathing. I may not WANT that feeling... but it seems to be my default position. And I don't think I am alone - I think WAY too many of us have the exact same unwarranted feeling!
THAT is the real issue - the part that must be changed. I think that if.... no, WHEN, I can change my attitude, the rest will follow.
So, I spent a few days whirling around in the brain storms (NOT brainstorm :-) that follow in the wake of my analyzing my own behaviors.... and have come up with a short term solution that I think I can live with...
Apparently I am starting WAY at the beginning of an exercise program because I feel incredibly sedentary. While I have no problem wandering around the yard weeding... I can't seem to face 'official exercise' and I NEED to exercise my HEART muscle, if nothing else! And that is cardio - and, well, yuk.
My desire - my goal - is to build a healthy lifestyle. That may or may not include 'official exercise' but MUST include some type of cardio. While I ponder on that, I have made a very tiny commitment to myself.
Once upon a time, I counted the number of jumping jacks I could do in a minute - that is 40. I have committed to doing sets of 40 during the day. Just 40 jumping jacks. Just 40..... that's about 20 more than was comfortable the first day... so I did my 40, patted myself on the back and went on with my day.
The next day I did 40 again. I still didn't want to do them - but just 40 - just ONE minute... that's not too much to ask :-)
On Day 3, I managed to do it twice - once in the morning and once in the afternoon. I am seeing a slight - oh, so slight - difference in my attitude. I am not saying that what I am doing is enough - it clearly isn't... but anything is better than nothing... and babysteps will get me there.
Anyway - I will continue to think about the dvds I own.. and the exercise equipment... and work on getting up the moxie to use it again! I am not sure why I am having such a struggle getting started - how about you? Are you exercising consistently? Is life getting in your way or have you hit your stride and figured out a method that works for you?