I am so excited for today! I need to leave early to pick up one of my beautiful grandgirls to spend the night! I will be active today with my toddler girl :-)
*****Thrive in Five Update Day 20*****
Today I woke with a headache but am having different kinds of feelings.... the walk this morning helped clear my head - I imagined cleansing oxygen racing to my cells... it felt good! The headache tooks its time leaving - but the nausea subsided enough that I could THINK about eating a good breakast!
Didn't have much time to post here - but, while I still have my headache... I feel like I have been given a gift! On the way home from picking up my granddaughter, I stopped at Sheetz - and picked up some doughnut holes for my son to share with her on our drive home. I wanted them.... automatically... but my inner voice said.... you are already OFF kilter today... you need to be nourished... and I had a KIND bar in my bag. (I always carry those because there are NO chemicals in them - just FOOD) Anyway - I ate that on the way home.... slowly.... and knew that good protein and fruit was entering my body - NOT processed sugar!
And just now I went to the extra fridge in the garage to get bread (there are ice cream bites in there) Usually I snag one or two as I pass... automatically.... and I opened the freezer to do that... and my response to it was... NO, you don't really want it. You need CLEAN food today. WOW!! What a gift!
Three weeks in, Hannah... weight not doing anything PROBABLY because I am putting in minimal physical effort so far..... BUT the results are coming! EVERY sugary item that I do NOT snag..... is JUNK that is not compounding the problem in my system. I will continue to step out in faith!
I did have a MAJOR epiphany last night - I am AFRAID! I am afraid to
invest myself too fully into a program where I will fail AGAIN. Not
that I can't lose the weight - I know I can! I just don't want to go
through the pain again. The pain of losing... the pain of re-gaining
because I am not committed to the solution.
(The epiphany is truly a blessing..... because I AM AFRAID replaces... 'I am lazy", 'I'm not able', 'I'm not good enough', etc. I AM AFRAID is something that will change with faith! The others are defeatist and kind of, well, terminal)
But the TRUTH is that I AM committed to being healthy. I AM committed to having energy.
And I KNOW that this slow, sensible, prayerful approach will yield fruit. God's fruit.... in God's time... as I carefully make good choices... one by one!